While riding the subway the other day, I overheard this guy tell his friend that he’d had a “change of heart” about something.
A change of heart? Really? Is it that easy? Can you just CHANGE your heart? Erase past hurts?
Personally, I’ve always been one to wear my heart on my SLEEVE. I lay myself bare too easily. “Tip my hand,” as it were. I’m quick to say “I love you.” And SLOW to wish I hadn’t.
But I didn’t know there was any other way to be. I didn’t know I could just CHANGE my heart.
I’ll let you in on a little secret, in addition to being vulnerable, I’m also a little naïve. I’ll believe anything you tell me, regardless of how far fetched it may seem. I wouldn’t lie to YOU, and find it hard to believe that anyone would lie to ME.
Twice – at two different places of employment – I’ve been “collateral damage” in a love triangle. Each time my boss was dipping his pen in the company ink, shall we say, and not everyone involved was single. Let me clarify: I was NOT one of the players – more of a “spectator” of sorts. Still, it can wreak havoc on the work environment, and on everyone’s emotions. Plenty of us got swept up in the maelstrom. You’d think that by the second time around I would have caught on. But BOTH times I was the last one in the office to read the writing on the cubicle wall.
I’m not sure if I’ve been hurt by love more than MOST – but it’s been more than enough for ME.
Still, if I COULD just change my heart, I’m not so sure I would.